J'ai l'ennui.

It has just seriously dawned on me today that I have another year after this one at New College. I love the place, but goddamnit if it isn't exhausting. Besides, due to my success (so far) in certain travails, I've had a slight change of heart in career plans--one that I won't tell anyone here due to the fact that it would most likely piss them off or seriously offend their liberal sensibilities--and I don't even want to be here anymore.

I've totally burned my intellectual curiosity to a crisp through countless hours of reading history, poli sci, and social theory... everything is beginning to look the same. Nothing is new in my classes, it all bores me to tears (sometimes literally). It's as though I know everything already and I'm taking these courses over again.

So, essentially, my time here is just -waiting- to be free. I just want everything to be done so I can get-the-fuck-out-of-Dodge.

God, I should've taken the semester off or studied abroad.

I'm beginning to check out of here already, and I haven't even picked a thesis topic.

Somebody kill me.

~Halcyondream~

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