Current Music: "We Are Going to be Friends" by The White Stripes

Another evening well spent; I can't imagine enjoying the company of anyone else or without anyone present.

I don't believe I've seen a pair as in love or as absolutely perfect for one another as KidE and Aquarius.

My only wish is that they could move down here. That would be blood type: awesome.

I hope that if I find someone to marry, she and I are half as happy as KidE and Aquarius.

That would totally own.

I understand now just how special marriage is. Splitting with K was about the inability of either of us to compromise our own lives enough to make it work. To even be able to get married, much less find someone that special to you to marry in the first place, is really difficult.

I do miss being in a relationship, but I'm pretty sure romance is off my horizon for now. If I got involved with someone seriously, I'd just end up hurting them.

I cannot let go of my plans to go abroad for a year and then go to grad school in DC, then take a job in the Foreign Service or as an analyst for CIA.

I have definite goals. Dreams, really. It's totally egocentric, at least that's the way it seems to me. Maybe I just haven't found the person that I would compromise that much for. Possibly I haven't found the woman who is more important than my dreams.

Maybe I will, someday.

Right now, though, I can be content to love my friends, which I feel these last three years I haven't done nearly enough of.

Though I suppose if I could get into something romantic but a little less than serious, I would go for it.

Maybe that's just hormones.

~Halcyondream~

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